The total chaos of moving is completely in effect, almost
completely. I have been loading boxes for over a month and only two days away I
feel like enough has just not gotten done. Once you bust through the first
layer of stuff it seems there are more layers. The move is not the chaos I am
worried about because personally I kind of like moving. It is exciting and
gives me a chance to rid of things we just shouldn’t be holding on to. This
move is especially exciting for me as we are moving to the place I grew up and
since I was eighteen years old I have only spent a few short days at a time. I
will have my family close and people I grew up with that I haven’t seen in
years. Some people who really did play a big part in my life that I have never
forgotten as they are impossible to forget. I have carried their smiles with me
for a very long time but having the time to see those smiles in person and
catch up will be so much better.
What happens
with Phillip during this move is a total mystery and yes I am worried how he
will adjust. The big kids will adjust fine and make new friends with ease. They
are in Junior High and I know the school they are going to is a great one with
many more things for them to do to keep busy in a positive way. With Phillip it
is going to go one of two ways, either very hard or very easy. I have learned
during this journey with him to expect the unexpected and never assume
anything.
We will
have a much bigger home for him to burn energy and hide in, with a nice fenced
in safe backyard to play in. The fence is a God sent by the way and I am
thrilled to have that security for him. We will live in a suburban neighborhood
with busy streets so the running will be a huge challenge and trying to
establish boundaries. It seems like we have finally reached the boundaries here
and will begin all over again. The places we go will be much bigger, louder,
faster, and overwhelming for him at first and I know this will cause some
distress until he adjusts. With all this he will also have more things to do
and positive things coming his way.
For now
I know some of the things to expect but my mind is going into limbo until we
are actually there and it is unfolding right in front of me. I don’t expect
anything from him at this point because I can’t. One step at a time and right
now the first step is to drive for nine hours and get to see in person our new
home which my amazing mom and dad found for us. The drive alone is enough to
worry about and jumping over that worry to the next will for sure send me right
over the edge into crazy town. One step at a time with no expectations is the
only way to breathe easy and stay calm.
My next
blog will not be until next week when we get our internet all set up. I have no
doubt between now and then life is going to throw some interesting things our
way. I am really hoping those interesting things bring laughter and excitement but
there is always the chance I will take a detour into crazy town along the way. In
fact…let’s just assume that is going to happen and hope it makes for a good
story. I hope all of you have easy days ahead and until my next blog….please pray
for my sanity and hearty sense of humor!
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