For the past four days I have not been feeling my best and the
part what was getting me down was the fact this happens every year like
clockwork and sticks with me through the entire cold season. It’s infuriating
to say the least and with three kids to keep up with I just can’t afford to go
through this health battle all over again. Two years ago I ended up in two
emergency rooms with no answers and in the end my dad and I figured out it had
to be environmental. I began taking an allergy pill every day and that is year
round. Shoved it off as a mold I was sensitive to and when you live where I do,
there could be a number of them to blame.
Four days ago when I started
feeling this way all over again and had to double my allergy pill intake, the
thought of being ill for months all over again ripped apart my optimism that I
pride myself so much on. Once that was weakened it seemed like every little
thing was able to rush in and bring me down more. All of the stresses I have
had that I have been able to keep at bay came flooding in and this little Miss
Susie sunshine was walking around with a big black cloud over her head.
At 2am
I woke up with again a stuffy nose, swollen eyes, and complete frustration. I
also had to go load the fireplace so the morning cold wouldn’t get us and it
hit me. After 4 years of struggling through the winter feeling like death my
wood stove gave me a big evil grin. It has to be the wood stove. Not the wood
stove itself but the wood and process of burning it. The tree pollen and the
molds that grow in it are in my arms every day and I am burning it, so it’s
coming back into the home every time I open that dang stove up. I experience
the allergy all year but it is at its worst beginning four days ago when I
began to burn. Bottom line, I am allergic to trees. The irony in that being a
girl who was born in raised in the northwest and now lives in a national forest
is just amazing. Even more amazing is the time it has taken me to figure this
out. Three doctors and two emergency rooms with no answers and all of sudden
the answer hit me because the answer was sitting right in front of me the whole
time. So that is that and it’s no longer a mystery and now I get to push
through it once again. Totally unavoidable and nothing can be done to rid of
this cold weather problem. Now that I have discovered the answer my attitude is
nearly restored but it may take a couple of days to completely dig myself out
of the misery hole I landed in.
Life is
funny this way. Things happen you can’t control and no matter how hard you try
to figure it out the answer still may not bring relief. In this case I can’t
even work around it because it’s a matter of keeping my family warm.
Years
ago I worked at a photography studio and this may seem off subject but it’s
not. He lived in another town and I ran the studio when he couldn’t be there.
If a problem came up all he would say to me was, “deal with it.” This completely
frustrated me to no end and never left me feeling like I could deal with at
all. Fifteen years later those three little words still jump up into my mind
more than I ever thought they would. Sometimes it’s really all you can do.
So
today if you are faced with a challenge and you are struggling to find an
answer, in the words of a wise man I once knew….Deal with it. I will add I
think his photography studio was closed so it might be wise to pick and choose
when and why you take this approach. Explore every other option first and once
you have decided there just really is no answer that’s when it is safe to just….Deal
with it.
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